Dealing with the drama called life....

Ugh. So, I just looked, it's been almost a month to the day since I last blogged. Naughty ME! There's absolutely no defense this time though. I just didn't wanna. :P

I'm caught in an inner turmoil / dialogue with myself. I LOVE blogging. But it's been taking some of my free time away from my family. So, I've been struggling trying to justify being on the computer....aka blogging, facebook, etc....(and also justify it to Hunky Hubby - when it takes away time from him....)

I'm considering closing this blog down (after I sent it to print, of course....) and opening another one. I've not quite made up my mind. :(

It's a hard decision to make!

In the mean time, after all the hub-bub about Jake & Cami, my sister Lee....we can now add to the drama of family life - with yet another "falling out" - only this time, its between me and probably my closest sister Sarah.

I hate misunderstandings. What's worse than that of misunderstandings, is when others don't want to talk it out. (I'm guilty of this upon occassion....)

But this last time was the last straw. What started out as a misunderstanding took on a life of its own, and became an all-out "holy war" that was sparked by a seriously gross misunderstanding. That led to 3 weeks (and counting) of non-verbal communication, followed by a 4-text message, that attacked my beliefs - completely unprovoked and so far out in left-field it was a little disturbing.

I don't need to get into the particulars, only to say, after writing a 4 page letter in response to the text (which I'll never send, because I know if I do ALL lines of communication will be cut off in the future - with no hope of ever restoring....) I've just decided to take a hiatus from family relationships (minus my parents) with the sib's.

It's so wearing!!! Emotionally. Physically. Mentally. Every kind of "ally" there is. :(

And in the mean time, I'm trying to earn some "good" mommy points by throwing myself that much further into activities and such - to help the boys along....which also includes Visiting Teaching, Service, CLEANING, and all that fun stuff.

On the bright side, Josh starts Pre-School in 2 weeks. Matt just turned 4! :O I still can't download my stupid photos!!! :*(

And there are some good ones too!!!

So, now my latest debacle (everything posted above pushed aside....) is what to do with the 2 1/2 hours to myself each week?

I'm currently rearranging my iPod selections to a more suitable "running" mix....and I'm preparing to FINALLY get up off the couch, and start the marathon preps that I've been telling myself I'll do, and never actually finish. It is after all, a 3 month program to get you off the couch and into a marathon. LOL. We'll see if it works.

AND....in the meantime, I've applied for a position in the Daycare at the Gym. I'm crossing my fingers, fasting & praying that I get it - so I can go back to the gym!!!

After all, it'd be my luck that either a brother in law or some of my dearest friends might suddenly decide to go get married, and I will not be immortalized in family photos as the pretty fat girl. LOL. What a pun on words! I didn't mean it like "she's pretty fat....", but more like "she's fat, but pretty." LOL. I still get that a lot. (Not that I'm fat....just that people say I wear my weight well. Which, upon thinking about it....doesn't that just mean that I look good fat?!) lol.

Oh well. :P I'll just have to keep my swimsuit out - to entice me back to my skinny jeans.

And in the mean time....should anyone local want to join me in my couch to marathon training....just call. It'll be Tuesdays and Thursdays. :P

Happy Turkey Month! :P